The Diary Of A Healing Heart

I hope where ever you are if you are melonated you yelled: I’M BLACK AND I’M PROUD! It’s black history month and I try my hardest to own and honor our history and ensure I teach my children the same. I’m raising the leaders of tomorrow, I have three black sons. Future fathers, husbands, spiritual…

Yesterday I didn’t post. Today I almost didn’t. I just don’t feel like it. I’m annoyed and I get tired of complaining and I feel like that’s what I been doing. Life been life-ing and she been ghetto as hell with it. I’m tired. I want a whole day to not “have to”. Maybe it…

Yesterday I was talking to my one of my colleagues, honestly she is more like a mentor and big sister. We were talking about managing stress. I’m not the best at holding people accountable and it can stress me out because I’m unlearning being Puddin. One of the things I’ve mastered is surrounding myself with…

I said it yesterday people won’t stop people-ing. Truth is people be doing too much. The only way to protect yourself is boundaries, most importantly enforcing the consequences when the line is crossed. My cousin sent me a song yesterday that blessed me. It was “Boundaries Featuring Tired and Exhausted by Durand Bernarr”. She said…

Baby, don’t you hate when it seems you can give someone EVERYTHING and they still throw you under the bus? It’s people I’ve protected, looked out for, invested in, provided for and loved on that have returned my actions with hurt betrayal and pain. Like who raised these people? Was it just my family that…

You don’t have to be nice you have to be kind. Nice guys finish last for a reason. I searched the definition of the word a while ago and it said pleasant, agreeable and satisfactory. Sounds like people pleasing right? Kind is defined as having or showing a friendly, generous, and considerate nature. That’s about…

Five years ago after my son and my BCF had passed on I never could have foreseen how my life was about to change. I moved out of the apartment we had been in for five years. Three of my four children had been created there. That’s the place they came home to after the…

Five years ago when I woke up to do my “rounds” before the family woke up I found my 20 month old twin laying in his crib. He was unresponsive. Normally when I would find him on his side I would straighten him out and he would ball up, stretch out then relax with a…

It’s always been: “You’re so strong” “I don’t know how you do it” and the one I hate the most “I wish I could be as a strong as you” NO YOU DON’T! I make this shit look good, but baby it ain’t easy! I’m tired of having to be strong. Believe you me it’s…

Today i didnt write when i first woke up. I got up after sweating all night (yall i think i won the battle with this bug) and needed to bathe. I hadn’t done a spiritual bath in a couple days and for the last few weeks i had been adding herbs and different things like…