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*EyeRoll*
Yesterday I didn’t post. Today I almost didn’t. I just don’t feel like it. I’m annoyed and I get tired of complaining and I feel like that’s what I been doing. Life been life-ing and she been ghetto as hell with it. I’m tired. I want a whole day to not “have to”. Maybe it…
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I ain’t stressing today
Yesterday I was talking to my one of my colleagues, honestly she is more like a mentor and big sister. We were talking about managing stress. I’m not the best at holding people accountable and it can stress me out because I’m unlearning being Puddin. One of the things I’ve mastered is surrounding myself with…
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The gun line boss….
I said it yesterday people won’t stop people-ing. Truth is people be doing too much. The only way to protect yourself is boundaries, most importantly enforcing the consequences when the line is crossed. My cousin sent me a song yesterday that blessed me. It was “Boundaries Featuring Tired and Exhausted by Durand Bernarr”. She said…
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People won’t stop people-ing
Baby, don’t you hate when it seems you can give someone EVERYTHING and they still throw you under the bus? It’s people I’ve protected, looked out for, invested in, provided for and loved on that have returned my actions with hurt betrayal and pain. Like who raised these people? Was it just my family that…
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I don’t have to be nice…
You don’t have to be nice you have to be kind. Nice guys finish last for a reason. I searched the definition of the word a while ago and it said pleasant, agreeable and satisfactory. Sounds like people pleasing right? Kind is defined as having or showing a friendly, generous, and considerate nature. That’s about…
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Maybe it’s falling together…
Five years ago after my son and my BCF had passed on I never could have foreseen how my life was about to change. I moved out of the apartment we had been in for five years. Three of my four children had been created there. That’s the place they came home to after the…
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Five years later
Five years ago when I woke up to do my “rounds” before the family woke up I found my 20 month old twin laying in his crib. He was unresponsive. Normally when I would find him on his side I would straighten him out and he would ball up, stretch out then relax with a…
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Vulnerability is not weakness.
It’s always been: “You’re so strong” “I don’t know how you do it” and the one I hate the most “I wish I could be as a strong as you” NO YOU DON’T! I make this shit look good, but baby it ain’t easy! I’m tired of having to be strong. Believe you me it’s…
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Make room for you
Today i didnt write when i first woke up. I got up after sweating all night (yall i think i won the battle with this bug) and needed to bathe. I hadn’t done a spiritual bath in a couple days and for the last few weeks i had been adding herbs and different things like…
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Rest, Retreat, Repeat
This morning I aint wanna write nothing, I wanna stay sleep. I have something happening with my sinuses, some major congestion and a cough, and its annoying. I also am getting a not so friendly reminder that im a woman. which is so ghetto to me, my tubes are tied and im celibate, shouldnt i…
The Diary Of A Healing Heart 