This society is a consumer society. We don’t fix things, we replace them, and even when/if we keep it we want options or an upgrade. I don’t know what makes us always want and never take survey of what we have.

Y’all I’ve been trying to get out and to the gym in the morning. Baby ITS BEEN tough! I don’t get to sleep in time at night, then my sleep keeps being broken by these kittens (so over them) so I’m tired in the mornings, and then the ultimate betrayal due to daylight savings time, waking up before the alarms (yes plural, judge ya mama), now the ultimate betrayal, it’s winter again in Chicago and who is going outside?

So yeah getting to the gym has been a challenge.

Funny thing is why did I think I needed to GO to the gym? Why can’t I just set the goal to workout? Why do I always set goals so hard they make me give up? Why can’t I EVER see what already have?

I started writing this piece on my exercise bike in my living room! I know! I have an exercise bike, a stepper, weights, weight bands and the fun hoola hoop weights, yoga mats and all right here in my house. What makes me think I have to go somewhere? And pay them? I have all I need for a good work right here. But I clearly like to make things hard for me.

Reminder to self: (in my Mariah Carey voice) “imma do the best I can with what I got!”

I think a big chunk of dissatisfaction comes from us never taking a second to honor what we already have. What we’ve already built. Even what we’ve already become. There is this never ending quest to next, more, upgrades, new, and the worst “trendy”. It’s a never ending chase that leaves us in a place of want, not gratitude.

But thank you makes room for more right?

I’m sure it does so in gratitude I’m not only honoring what I have I’m using it.

Now today’s work out got cut short due to a horrendous cramp in my thigh. I would have been pissed had I got up, went out in 20 degree weather, got to the gym and had a cramp! Because truth be told I’m so out of shape that kind of thing may happen, more frequently than I’d like to admit. It’s a big chunk of why I need to work out again and I do see if I don’t start now it will only get harder for my body, I am 40.

So let me make this easy for me and not have to drive at the butt crack of dawn in winter ANYWHERE and start simply with what I got, because I already have everything I need.

Love y’all, Mean it

MsRaqi💜

The Healing Heart